Anyway, I felt the need to write it down because I have a tendency to get
So I need that reassurance that God's timing is the best timing. His ways/plans are the best ways/plans. That just because things are not happening the way *I* want them to, does not mean that He is not listening or does not care......quite the opposite. He cares so much about me and all the details, that He makes sure that everything plays out in my life for the highest good.
It's like when your child wants to have that bag of cotton candy and you know it will not only rot in their stomach, but it will clearly be costing you money...and them pain....in the future at the dentist. So you tell them no. You know that you are doing it for their best interest, but all they can think about is how good it looks and how they really want/need it. When it is denied or withheld, it appears that you are just being a mean mom and sucking all the fun out of life. Yes, one of my children told me that......so I just smiled and handed him a baggie of homemade granola. Then I agreed that I was the Queen of Fun Sucking and he and his gut and teeth would thank me later.
OK, so maybe comparing me being a Fun Sucker isn't a great comparison to God and how He does or does not answer prayers......but let's just agree that our Father knows what is best for us, even when we think we do. That's the thing.......sometimes, we base our needs on "the here and now" and what our flesh desires. God goes way beyond this earthy way of thinking/reasoning. He sees beyond "the here and now" and already knows what He has planned for us in the future. And based on my track record with making decisions and choices in my past.......I think it's best to trust and wait on Him.
Or maybe I need to learn a lesson and that is the reason there is a delay on answering some of my prayers/desires. Maybe God is waiting for the circumstances in my life to be lined up perfectly for Him to bring these desires to pass. God has a purpose for everything, so during these trials of "waiting", God must be molding me and shaping me. He is stretching me in directions that maybe I would not willingly go, but He knows I need to for what is ultimately best for me.
Perhaps.......He is preparing me for what He has prepared for me.
This is REALLY going to be a test of my faith.....and trying to keep this as real as I can......I am not sure on how I am going to handle it. I guess I can pray that God will forgive my kickin', screamin' and cryin' for awhile. Then I know and trust that He'll be there to wipe the tears and boogers. And for the grand finale, He will then open my eyes to show me that He had something better prepared for me all along.
So, I share with you...... ~Psalm 62:1 MEV aka Michelle's edited version
quietly as quiet as I possibly can.......(with a few excused frustrated meltdowns that I hope He can forgive me for)....... before God, for my victory comes from Him.
Today I need to remind myself that I do not want to run ahead of God. I trust and believe that He is the Author and Finisher of my life. He has my life written and knows what should happen and when it should. Maybe what I desire does not fit into His master plan for me. I will *try* to be as patient as possible while I wait for the visions/hopes....... that I believe He placed in my heart and spirit.......to come to pass. I will also try to stop praying selfishly and start asking God what He wants from me.
Here is a poem I found that I really liked and thought I would share, maybe one of my friends (you know I consider you all my friends, right?) is also waiting on some unanswered prayers like me. I hope it brings a little extra peace and comfort to you today!
God's delays are not denials;
He has heard your prayers;
He knows all about your trials,
Knows your every care.
God's delays are not denials,
Help is on the way;
He is watching over life's deals,
Bringing forth the day.
God's delays are not denials,
You will find Him true;
Working through life's darkest trials,
What is best for you.
I hope you have a beautiful weekend......
Peace, love and stay barefoot~