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"I've been bamboozled"

Ah yes.....the famous words of the Burgermeister Meisterburger. You know him, the grouchy, fun-loathing mayor of Sombertown from Santa Claus is Comin' to Town. (which btw is one of my favorite classic animated Christmas shows.....first being The Little Drummer Boy)

Well that is who I was last night. I was miserable and ill tempered. I was barking orders at the kids. Every little thing set me off to a Code Red status.

There was nothing in particular, that I can think of, that brought me to this Burgermeister state of being. Maybe it was because my house was upside down and I was getting overwhelmed........maybe it was due to an overly scheduled and hectic week, or was it seeing my checking account got down to $3.96 (not kidding! God sure does have a sense of humor with His accounting)......I could blame it on hormones......perhaps a combination of them all. Regardless......I created my own version of Sombertown and I was the Mayor.

This morning, I looked up the meaning of somber;

-adjective 1. gloomily dark; shadowy; dimly lighted 2. gloomy, depressed, dismal.

Yep. That was me, alright. What grabbed my attention the most with this part of the definition was "dimly lighted"


I had no Light. God's Light was totally missing. And get this.....looking back.....I was totally keeping the shades drawn to purposely keep it out. As I stormed walked around the house, I truly felt validated with how I was acting and treating everyone. I am ashamed to admit (but you know I will lay it all out here) that even while decorating our tree, I felt the need to keep that snappy edge on to get my message across. How sad is that?

So this might be going out on a limb, but it was like the scene from that movie only with my own character substitutions.......(I got this from the Internet Movie Database while searching for a Burgermeister photo and it just seemed perfect!)

Burgermeister Meisterburger Me: You brats are under arrest.

Kris Kringle God: Wait don't arrest those children. It was my fault I gave them the toys. (the gift of peace and joy)

Burgermeister Meisterburger Me: YOU? How dare you! You are obviously a nonconformist and a rebel! (Have you seen the day I have had? How and why would I want to be happy? I feel so out of control.......so at least let me control staying mad, thankyouverymuch!)

Kris Kringle God : Have a yo-yo. (I can bring you peace and joy)

Burgermeister Meisterburger Me: [gasps and chokes] A yoooooo-yoooooooooo? I love yo-yos. (to have peace in my heart) I used to be able to do all kinds of tricks. Ah-wheeeee

(insert me actually starting to have fun with the kids....I think I might have even cracked a smile)


Grimsby my angry spirit/the enemy: Excuse me sir, but you're breaking your own law.

Burgermeister Meisterburger Me: [gasps and chokes] Ooooooouuuuuuu, I've been bamboozled! (I am supposed to be angry, dang it!)

So OK, maybe it's a little quirky of me to represent how God desire to give us peace by referencing a 1970 stop motion TV special......but to me, it was like God was still trying to shine His Light in my dark gloomy world/day by offering the chance to turn it all around with decorating the tree. He did not turn His back on me even as I was turning my back on Him. I should have graciously accepted His gift of grace when I certainly didn't deserve it. But I had been gripped/bound by my own emotions, I was stubborn and continued to stay angry.

And all it did was rob me (and my children) of joy.

So today, I am giving thanks to our God who wipes the slate clean and gives us/me a new day to make things right. A fresh start.....I cannot take away the ugly from yesterday, but I am given the beautiful opportunity to apologize to everyone and start fresh.

My first order of business in asking forgiveness is to God. I feel that it must be such a slap in the face to Him when I was holding onto anger and bitterness. He has blessed my socks off, but yet I found something negative to focus on and gave full authority for it to rule my actions.

So now I pray: Dear Lord, Help me honor You when the battles rage inside me. I don't want to hurt and fight with the people I love. I don't want to disappoint You. I need You to help me with keeping my emotions in check. I need You to help direct my steps/reactions. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Thankfully.....just like in the movie, there is true Victory in Christ. From Wikipedia's summary:

"As time continues to pass, though, the Burgermeister regime ends, as their forebears begin dying off and falling out of power, at which point the Sombertowners realize how ludicrous the Meisterburger "laws" really were while Kris Kringle "legend" continues to go worldwide"

Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger,
brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.
Be kind and compassionate to one another,
forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

~Ephesians 4:31-32

So my friends, if you got this far, without thinking I was too loony or off-the-wall with my thought process (I've been called worse!).....I hope you are blessed with a wonderful weekend filled with Light and Happiness.




Denise said...

Sweet, sweet blessings to you precious one.

Joyce said...

You know I really appreciated this post because I think 'cranky' hovers at the edges of my life in the month of December and I have to work hard not to let it seep all the way in. Focus. I need to keep my focus where I need to keep my focus : ) As you said so well...on the Light!

I don't think you're loony...I think we're all a work in progress...

amanda said...

i love your 'allegory's praying you keep the joy joy joy joy down in your heart. where? down in your heart.:0)

Andrea said...

I think we have all be bamboozled by the evil one. Thankfully, when we seek forgiveness, guidance, and direction from our Heavenly Father, He eagerly supplies it.
Blessings and great big hugs,

Beth E. said...

Ah, yes...I used to have days like that. In fact, I would warn my family about my mood! Bill said he always knew - just by walking in the door - because the room was about 10 degrees cooler, due to the "chill in the air"! lol

I found out from my doctor...after the fact...that mine was probably hormone-related.Since I have gone through the Big M process, I now stay in a muuuuch better frame of mind. You have several years before you have to worry about that, though!

BTW...that's not an excuse for my poor behavior...just the facts, ma'am. ;-)

Have a great weekend!

Deb ~ Frugal Living And Having Fun said...

Excellent post Michelle, Love, Deb

Kendra Lee said...

Love the analogy! May have to rent that one now! I love how something so unexpected (ie. watching a 1970 Christmas flick) opens your eyes to what's going on on the inside. God can use anything :0

L.L. Barkat said...

dimly lighted... ah yes, pushes us ever towards the Day, the Giver of Day.

christy rose said...

Wow! that was a great revelation that the Lord showed you about being somber-gloomy and dimly lit! That is exactly how we feel when we close the shades and refuse to let the Light shine in our face, revealing the Truth and reminding us of the greatness that is in our lives through Him. Light is necessary for growth and when we don't let it in we cease to grow and become stunted and stagnant. I am thanking Jesus that He is the Light that brings growth and excitement in my life right now!!! Thanks for being an object lesson to me today! :)
Love, christy

Tracy said...

Adored this post Michelle; you made me laugh and I could totally relate.

There have been those times I've struggled with being "dimly lit" - a real grouch.

The only thing so far that's helped it get better for me is to 1)Pull my covers and let my family know my struggle when I'm going through it ("you know you guys, it's goofy, but I feel really angry for no good reason and I'm going to try to make sure that I do not take it out on you and really pray about this"), 2)MAKE myself speak out loud gratitude to God for every good thing I see around me as it comes up, 3)Pray for His power to keep sin from my lips/actions.

It's kind of funny 'cuz this week my 17yr old followed this example, or at least the first part, and told me that he's not sure why but he's really struggling with feeling grumpy and upset. It sure helped me not take him too seriously when he made unkind comments (I figure it's not so bad when he does; one hopes one's self control increases with age).

Bina @ Bina's Pad said...

I love you...simply because I read your words and see myself...and then I cry, laugh and otherwise confuse my emotions until all that is left is pure, simple love.

From one Burgermeister Meisterburger Mama to another,

E @ Scottsville said...

Thoroughly enjoyed your writings today!

We all have 'those days'. Thankfully mine are few and far between. Hope my kids would agree with me?! =0)

rcubes said...

You just know how to put all your perspectives into words. It's quite amusing, yet thought provoking at times!
We all go through that stage and I'm grateful, too that our God is always forgiving no matter how many times we hurt Him. Loved that verse you shared from Philippians. Very timely too for this special season. God bless.

Mich said...

Oh friend, we Moms all have our moments when the stress kicks in.

I loved this post. So honest. thanks for sharing your heart once again.

Have a beautiful weekend!

Joye @ The Joyeful Journey said...

Oh I relate, I relate! I'll have to remember your version of that wonderful little episode! : )

Sara @ Domestically Challenged said...

Oh, I hope the sweet weekends are to you! You need it my dear!

Kim said...

I love this.... You, Michelle, are an "elbow in the ribs" to me. I needed it.


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