tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post2409317686902904980..comments2024-01-01T22:19:19.426-05:00Comments on ~ Psalm 104:24 ~: Stubborn or Determined.....Hopeless or Hopeful?~*Michelle*~http://www.blogger.com/profile/12973255141669832129noreply@blogger.comBlogger39125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-78576624679404391652009-10-01T12:07:58.036-04:002009-10-01T12:07:58.036-04:00Michelle,
I am in complete understanding of where ...Michelle,<br />I am in complete understanding of where you are in your life right now. Of course, you know that I am 43 too. And, I have a beautiful 18 month old baby boy that has brought such joy and happiness into our home. I had him when I was 41. Before that, I had two miscarriages. One was at 8 weeks, most likely from low progesterone that I was not aware of because I had not gone to the doctor until it was too late. The other one was at 6 weeks with no formed baby to be seen in the ultrasound. Then, a few months later, Jacob was conceived. I took progesterone supplements starting at 6 weeks until 13 weeks. He was a beautiful healthy baby boy. <br /><br />After Jacob was born, I began to think that it was sad that he is so much younger than all of my other children. And, I thought that it might be kinda nice for him to have a brother his age to grow up with. My three older children will be in college when he turns 6. And, my Amanda will be in college when he is 9. I think it is sad that he might grow up with all of his siblings out of the home already. So, my heart began to long to have another baby a couple of months after he was born. I was extremely thrilled when I found out that I was pregnant again about 4 months ago. But, miscarried again at 6 weeks, with no baby to be seen in the ultrasound, just a gestation sac. I was definitely sad yet had so much peace at the same time. Anyway, I say all of that to say this. I am right there with you in desiring to have another baby. Sometimes, I think I must be crazy too. I have 5 beautiful healthy children. Why do I need to have more. But, I have asked God to take away this desire from me or fulfill it. Sometimes, I feel like I would be just fine with the children that I have and enjoy them for a lifetime and other times that overwhelming desire to bring another baby into our family rises up Big Time! Even my older kids sometimes say "mom, I think you should have another baby for Jacob." I have never thought of adopting before. But, I have read so many people's wonderful stories in the blogging world of adoptions that it does come up in my heart sometimes now. Even so, it does not take away that desire to have another baby of my own.<br /><br />Anyways, I am not taking any extra measures to make babies come into our family. I am just let God and nature take its course. We will see what happens and trust God to bring to pass His perfect will for our lives. Whatever it is, God is good and I am not going to be disappointed in this life that He has already blessed me with. We both still have a lot of life to live and who knows where God is going to take us. But, He has blessed us both so much already. That is exciting in and of itself. <br /><br />I read in the comments above that you are going to just let happen what happens for now and not take Clomid. I think that no matter what you decided, God's will is going to prevail. So we are both in the same boat, I guess. That is kind of exciting!! I am praying for you that God reveals Himself and His perfect will to you and directs your heart's desire in that direction too. I have been praying that for myself too. <br /><br />I am so glad that you shared all of this in this post. I knew that you had a desire for another baby. But, knowing all of these details helps me to know and understand even more how to pray.<br /><br />I think you are wonderful, definitely NOT crazy!!!! :)<br /><br />Love,<br />Christychristy rosehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04576305610780918375noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-63656124446990038112009-09-26T20:12:53.894-04:002009-09-26T20:12:53.894-04:00Okay...I'm late coming here and commenting, bu...Okay...I'm late coming here and commenting, but...that's how I am!<br /><br />I hopped over to read your blog, and just had to leave a comment about this post. Just a couple of things I wanted to share:<br /><br />My husband's mother was 43 when he was born. He's normal, and everything! ;-)<br /><br />Hubby and I were married for nine years...NINE...before we had our first child. The way I see it, God's timing is perfect. So is His plan for our lives. Continue to trust in Him.<br /><br />Blessings,<br />BethBeth E.https://www.blogger.com/profile/04996230415386423039noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-6357549001311567702009-09-25T23:28:09.902-04:002009-09-25T23:28:09.902-04:00Michelle, wow! it looks like you got a great respo...Michelle, wow! it looks like you got a great response to your questions. <br /><br />I pray that the Lord would lead you into all he has for you!Davedahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14182993023405516646noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-54397700892999615472009-09-25T15:45:59.868-04:002009-09-25T15:45:59.868-04:00Hi Michelle!!
Wow..adoption! I think that is won...Hi Michelle!! <br /><br />Wow..adoption! I think that is wonderful. I'll have to go back and read your posts on that! <br /><br />And thanks for the tip on the expiration dates!!! I know I'm slacking on the freezer department!!More Than Wordshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11159856133879672250noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-10624605515101061732009-09-25T10:12:43.384-04:002009-09-25T10:12:43.384-04:00Michelle, I don't think you are crazy at all! ...Michelle, I don't think you are crazy at all! As a matter of fact, I'm pretty glad that you came across my blog, because as I read your post, and came to realize that you think a lot like me ~ frightening??? LOL<br />This post hits VERY close to home for me, and I totally understand your pain and confusion here.Kathy C.https://www.blogger.com/profile/17099897804706795324noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-64416851964628892262009-09-24T09:32:02.680-04:002009-09-24T09:32:02.680-04:00Meeeshell!~
See, I must be from the south. I crack...Meeeshell!~<br />See, I must be from the south. I cracked up at that post. I struggled with infertility, but it was very short-lived 16 months. I have no clue what you are going through with all this waiting and losses. I wish I could take all the pain away for you. But I do know that we serve a loving Saviour. He is compassionate and He cares about the desires of your heart. Stay in His word daily and He will give you the peace about what to do. He does care about every little thing and He does give us little glimpes of Heaven every once in a while. I'm doing the JOY dance for Wanda...way to go girl!!! Keep those farm museings coming...I love them and I believe God has great plans for the Kingdom Kids Farm! I love you my JOY sistah!<br />Hugs of JOY JOY JOY!<br />Dawn5forjesushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14277933360063437428noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-89104463509638611422009-09-24T08:38:44.855-04:002009-09-24T08:38:44.855-04:00WOW! I poped over to say thanks for stopping by fo...WOW! I poped over to say thanks for stopping by for OW and get swept away into your museing...<br /><br />I am afraind Have have little to contribut as both myself and the hubs have been well past the childbearing stage. He had the big "V" after our second child and she is now 14. So we are approaching the empty nest quickly and enjoying a new phase of our life. <br /><br />Your insights, your desire to seek God's will are evident. I know God is faithful. He will provide the answer to your seeking in His timing and with clarity as He always does. When we stop and take the time to search our heart for His will instead of our own, well the waiting for the reveal is always difficult but always worth it in the long run!<br /><br />No advice here, but wonderful post!<br /><br />Shalom<br />RobinRobin Lambrighthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12408265939620170615noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-3326294347893815122009-09-23T22:05:44.225-04:002009-09-23T22:05:44.225-04:00Thanks for your visit to my blog recently. I came ...Thanks for your visit to my blog recently. I came over to meet you and I look forward to my return.<br /><br />Blessings and peace!LisaShawhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01847564334928464883noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-78369530995630041662009-09-23T21:04:15.480-04:002009-09-23T21:04:15.480-04:00What a crack up! I wish I had some sage advice, i...What a crack up! I wish I had some sage advice, if not godly wisdom here, but fertility matters have long gone rusty on this 61 year old granny!<br /><br />I went through a period in my late 30s, when my three children were all but grown, when I thought having another baby was a fabulous idea. Hubby wasn't convinced so, needless to say, my dream did not become a reality. <br /><br />However, my mother was 42 and my dad 46 when they added me, #4, to the family. They went to their graves saying it was, I was, God's greatest gift (and sense of humor) to them.<br /><br />Blessings as you decide. If nothing else, you'll have fun trying. :)<br /><br />KathleenKathleen https://www.blogger.com/profile/05245926913888212148noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-43383035767684458572009-09-23T20:12:14.450-04:002009-09-23T20:12:14.450-04:00I like the other responses. I think that this is r...I like the other responses. I think that this is really a personal decision.<br /><br />I will say that I am a big proponent of adoption. I was a caseworker for DCFS for several years, and I believe that there are so many kids that need loving homes. <br /><br />Good luck with whatever you decide to do!Kristina P.https://www.blogger.com/profile/16144488639100871226noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-76147682145814198242009-09-23T17:58:04.812-04:002009-09-23T17:58:04.812-04:00We've tried for many years--doctors have no re...We've tried for many years--doctors have no real reason to give us why we can't be pregnant. My wife always wanted to be a mother and that has always been on her heart. None-the-less she has begun to love what she has and not what she wants and that's making for a most interesting life, which is what God really wanted for her in the first place, children or not.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16961377191597126990noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-85230194122152852962009-09-23T12:37:02.486-04:002009-09-23T12:37:02.486-04:00Aw Michelle...you beautiful thing! I love your wri...Aw Michelle...you beautiful thing! I love your writing style, your faith in God and your precious heart.<br /><br />I'm trying not to jump to conclusions, but Wanda's sitting on other chicken's eggs speaks so loudly of adoption to me (notice I said 'to me.'<br /><br />I don't believe God gave a mother's love only to dash it to pieces. Keep all the windows open, so something can fly in. Ok, I have no idea why I just said that. God, hello? Hehe...<br /><br />Saw your 'hippie' blog. I've been trying to start up a line of hippie greeting cards, playing around with the idea. If that grabs you, let me know. I just feel such a connection here.<br /><br />You are so blessed and loved!Deborah Annhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14415814125499548149noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-78445556029131526522009-09-23T11:02:22.713-04:002009-09-23T11:02:22.713-04:00P.s. I belive God does use anything He wants to sh...P.s. I belive God does use anything He wants to show us things. Whose eggs did your hen end up becoming the mama too? Just sayin' :).Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-9660274738994679222009-09-23T10:58:47.535-04:002009-09-23T10:58:47.535-04:00I have not struggled with infertility, but I have ...I have not struggled with infertility, but I have struggled with an unanswered prayer to be the mama to a child who had none. Years and years into my prayer to adopt, I gave up, and told the Lord I accepted my husband's changing his mind about adopting and asked the Lord to remove my desire and to help me find satisfaction and gratitude where I was, with the wonderful husband I had, who simlpy changed his mind about the adoption he promised me before I agreed to marry him.<br /><br />Sorry this is so long! One day, too much to tell, after we were married over twenty years and our youngest was 13, YEARS after I had quit asking to adopt, my husband asked me if I still wanted to adopt!!! A MIRACLE.<br /><br />What if you become a mama to a child who has none? My recent post, Water Colored Girl is about my miracle girl who the Lord gave me in my forties, adopted when I had given up all hope. I love her with every piece of my heart. She is as much my child as any child born to me. She has taught me more about what God means when He calls us adopted than any other lesson in my whole life. I love her with a love I didn't even know was possible. <br />May the Lord grant the desires of your heart!<br /><br />xxMeredith TeagardenAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-65310532204907373622009-09-23T09:43:17.301-04:002009-09-23T09:43:17.301-04:00I feel a little out of place commenting here becau...I feel a little out of place commenting here because I'm a guy, but I just wanted to say that I truly believe God will honor the desires of our hearts as long as those desires are for Him. And I have no doubt your desires for a child are just that.Billy Coffeyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08988347213957444145noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-89451416163727816422009-09-23T07:10:54.457-04:002009-09-23T07:10:54.457-04:00Thanks again everyone...I am so blessed to have yo...Thanks again everyone...I am so blessed to have you all take the time to pour your thoughts and prayers into this with me.<br /><br />Being a control freak, you can imagine how completely 100% "letting go, letting God" can be for me. But I also know that God has His hand on everything, so I have to trust in His will and decision.<br /><br />With that said....I have prayed alot over these past few days, and I think I am going to stick with just doing what we are doing (no meds) and have complete 100% faith that God will bring forth what He wants for our life and family size.<br /><br />How refreshing is this, Heidi<br /><i>"Except that God loves His children and knows the desires of each heart. When I read about His character in His word, I don't see that he works to make the faithful crazy, but promises to be with them always, providing for their needs and loving them unconditionally to the day each returns to live with him forever. He instructs all to lean on Him- to press into Him in all things. He is a promise keeper."</i><br /><br />@Theta Mom.....so true!~*Michelle*~https://www.blogger.com/profile/12973255141669832129noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-26787026965118693632009-09-23T06:52:48.902-04:002009-09-23T06:52:48.902-04:00I think when you are doing something that doesn...I think when you are doing something that doesn't bring the same joy to you as it did when you started, then you need to reflect if this is really worth the time you are investing in it. I think we need to do a litle self-reflection often, to make sure we are on the right path.Theta Momhttp://www.thetamom.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-25800795313870136142009-09-23T06:10:38.437-04:002009-09-23T06:10:38.437-04:00Hi Michelle,
Thanks for stopping by my blog and co...Hi Michelle,<br />Thanks for stopping by my blog and commenting on my post about worms! :) Now I can see why it encouraged you! Yes you are going through a lot, and the whole chick story is pretty wild. The problem is you just never know what God is doing and His timing. I always think I need to do all I can do, but the finished result is truly up to God and His plans. I do my part and allow Him to do his part. I do pray that you can have some peace and direction over this. It's such an issue that can consume a mom's heart.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-2703213592992712832009-09-22T21:20:12.170-04:002009-09-22T21:20:12.170-04:00Michelle,
Thank you for visiting my blog and for y...Michelle,<br />Thank you for visiting my blog and for your cheery comment. I enjoyed reading this graphic and humorous and heartfelt post. In fact, I will follow you, so I can read more- I like your style.<br /><br /> I have lived alongside a sister, who has struggled, her whole married life thus far, with infertility- I'm familiar with the emotions and God questions.<br /><br />No answers. Unfortunately. Except that God loves His children and knows the desires of each heart. When I read about His character in His word, I don't see that he works to make the faithful crazy, but promises to be with them always, providing for their needs and loving them unconditionally to the day each returns to live with him forever. He instructs all to lean on Him- to press into Him in all things. He is a promise keeper.<br /><br />My sister and hubby have adopted a 6 mo. old girl from Romania and a 2 and 1/2 yr. old boy from China. But they desire to have a biological child at any time God would grant it to them. Don't know if He will or won't BUT:<br /><br />they choose to serve and love and praise Him- in all things- no matter....I sense you do too and for that decision- you are very wise.<br /><br />I love chickens! Raised two here in the suburbs once- hatched 'em from eggs in the family room.<br /><br />Peace-<br />Heidi@2 Thinks to ShareHeidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00826459451502506768noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-73844369967685349822009-09-22T15:43:39.553-04:002009-09-22T15:43:39.553-04:00Please know I am praying for you dear one.Please know I am praying for you dear one.Denisehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09275456448997619944noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-83041386362611445972009-09-22T13:40:37.369-04:002009-09-22T13:40:37.369-04:00I'm praying sis. Don't have anything right...I'm praying sis. Don't have anything right now to give you so I will just be silent and pray ((hugs))Angelahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11857554289543670693noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-11005565574358398942009-09-22T06:24:32.382-04:002009-09-22T06:24:32.382-04:00Nancy, momstheword, Mimmy........everyone!
Thanks...Nancy, momstheword, Mimmy........everyone!<br /><br />Thanks so much for pouring into this with me......you have shed much light on helping me make my decision. It's so difficult, isn't it? Like how do we know it's God's desire/plan and not just something we are yearning for.<br /><br />momstheword, I hope you know that God had a plan with all that you went through, even when you feel you might have episodes of regret. Regret, like you said....is powerful and can be brought on by the Enemy to tell you that....see? You trusted in God and see, He didn't come through for you. But I believe that God takes what was intended for bad, and makes it good.<br /> <br />I am sure you have blessed lives when people witnessed your faithfulness through it all......you inspired....and I am sure you have counseled people throughout your journey. You probably gave someone one last bit of hope to trust in God that was a turning point in their life and you don't even know it.<br /> <br />I dunno.....it's the whole "God works in mysterious ways" deal.<br /> <br />oh, and yes.....I am taking the progesterone on the second half of my cycle....I did conceive a couple of months ago, but again....something must be going on with my uterine lining as it is a chemical pregnancy and my cycle starts a few days after I get the positive test(s).<br /><br /><br />Sara! BTDT with the vasectomy reversal...saving that story for another post giving God all the glory. LSS we had our three boys, Big V....meltdown, valley....reversal.....blessed with N within weeks of surgery. Tons of details and miracles along the way.<br /><br />Beth...thank you SO MUCH....you are my prayer warrior sister! AMEN!~*Michelle*~https://www.blogger.com/profile/12973255141669832129noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-58975746961589458552009-09-22T01:11:16.610-04:002009-09-22T01:11:16.610-04:00Michelle, like many others I do not feel I know en...Michelle, like many others I do not feel I know enough about the situation to advise, but I do know from reading your posts that you have a trememdous faith. Whatever decision you make will be for the best. <br /><br />God Bless,<br />Mimmy<br /><br />P.S. Love your blog.Mimmyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08545138224685571616noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-36217608443837538322009-09-21T23:10:24.035-04:002009-09-21T23:10:24.035-04:00I'm with you. Wanda was a messenger. I think y...I'm with you. Wanda was a messenger. I think you will together find the right path..when it comes! My friend wanted another baby- badly. Then? She was ok with not, as they could not afford the $8000 vasectomy reversal fee. fast forward 3 years and she is 12 weeks pregnant with *surprise* baby! Turns out the vasectomy undid itself- 9 1/2 years later. <br /><br />BTW, you are way, way too sweet! I love how you took my horrible choices and tried to be so upbeat about it! I can't imagine what you were thinking, but it sure made me smile!Sara @ Domestically Challengedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10245599062507705190noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-817241909677069838.post-12634005655449593712009-09-21T22:52:58.831-04:002009-09-21T22:52:58.831-04:00Oh girl, I am 42 and I am still trusting God for t...Oh girl, I am 42 and I am still trusting God for the child I believe He has promised. I totally understand what you're saying.<br /><br />Listen the world gives a certain type of wisdom -- then there is God's Word and what He says about your body.<br /><br />If He can do it for Sarah and Elizabeth -- then nothing is impossible for someone in her 40s! I declare HEALTHY eggs, HEALTHY sperm, and a HEALTHY WOMB in the NAME OF JESUS! I declare this for both of us. We will be married 20 years in November and we still have a blessed relationship too. <br /><br />We adopted our beautiful daughter. God ordained her for our family before time began. But I do believe there is one more to come. <br /><br />I pray God will give you peace and wisdom as you stand on His Word and speak LIFE over your womb, LIFE over your eggs, and LIFE over your husband's sperm. <br /><br />Bless you Michelle.Beth in NChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17492590083823556624noreply@blogger.com